by Sam Boyce
I come home from school to my room
everything is just the way I left it
nothing changes,
it’s as if my things
are permanent.
in an ever changing world,
my room stays
the same.
I think about it,
how I could move anything,
a pillow,
a stuffed animal,
a picture,
and the odds of it never going back to the same place it was
are extraordinary.
even if it’s by a nanometer,
if I move it,
the permanence
is gone.
nothing is permanent,
no matter how glued to the shelves my knick knacks seem,
the ever-changing world
is always ever-changing.
so, I keep my knick-knacks in the same place,
to prevent
everything from changing.
the one thing I can control,
the one thing I can make permanent
is my room.
but, my fan blows,
the windows open,
people come in
and out,
and nothing
can be promised to stay permanent.
feeling safe isn’t permanent,
so sometimes,
it’s best to forget
that anything can move,
any knick-knack can be replaced,
and just
enjoy the comfort,
enjoy
the temporary
permanence.