by Lillian Hays
The college process is a tiring, stressful, and sometimes scary process to go through. However, you can learn a lot about yourself throughout this time of your life, and the outcome is rather satisfying to most people. I am on the luckier side of the process, as my journey ended earlier than many. I was accepted into my early decision school, which instantly took a load off of my shoulders. I was able to finish alongside friends of mine, while others continue to struggle and worry about what lies ahead of them. I never stopped to think about the fact that just because I was done, that didn’t mean that other people weren’t getting denied or deferred, or even still having to wait for answers.
Now that I am done with the process, I find myself less willing to do work and stay on task. I sometimes catch myself thinking that since I’ve already gotten in, I don’t need to work as hard. Even when I know that I should be doing something other than watching the fifth season of my new favorite show on netflix, or getting distracted by the millions of other things I could be doing, I still continue doing anything that will keep me from the task at hand. I find myself feeling impatient, and unable to focus on anything that doesn’t have to do with what my life will be like next year. Sometimes it seems that ending the college process somehow told my brain that it was also done with high school. All of this is anything but true, which has led me to think about things that are closer to me than college. For example, instead of thinking about who my roommate will be, I focus on what I need to get done by the end of the week.
Although my system isn’t perfect, I like to think that things have been getting better in my present day life. Yes I am done with the college process, but that doesn’t mean I’m anywhere close to the actual college experience. I still have thesis, Strnad, Carnival, prom, graduation, and so much more to get through before I can really start to think about what I’ll be doing next year. So I guess my point is that committing to a school can make you feel like you don’t need to worry about anything else, but in reality you need to enjoy the rest of your senior year and the time that you have left with your friends before it’s all gone.